Quality Time

              The concept of spending time narrows down to perspective.  As does love.  As does respect.  Is it the amount of time that two people spend that defines how much they want to be with each other?  I say no.  In fact, it's most importantly the desire that two people have for the want of spending time with the other person that shows how much that other person wants to be with them.  I don't know how many times I've heard the saying, "bottom line" or "at the end of the day".  But it's certainly enough for me to aim a pistol at my temple and shoot, if I hear it again from anyone, anywhere.  Geez, life seemed so complicated back then but compare my past to now and it seemed much more simple. When I was with someone.  They loved me and there was reciprocation.  We would spend as much time that was allowed and we'd ache to spend that time.  We both shared the anticipated lust of each other's presence.  Now, it's analytical equations, broken down reasoning and just plain repetitive confusion.  I feel more broken than I've ever been.  I don't know how to put myself back together.